There was a time

Where I was your everything
Where I was the reason you got up in the morning
Where you were *so* scared that I would go looking for what you couldnt offer elsewhere
When we couldnt wait to be intimate with each other

That time for you is gone

But not for me.
All the above still applies. Even more so now. We have climbed mountains together - MOUNTAINS!
We have overcome so much and I truly believe we could have an amazing life.

If only you felt the same way.

I miss the little things!

There were so many things you did that cemented the thought in my mind and made me so secure in the fact that you loved me. I felt it. I saw it. I knew it.

Now? I have to just take your word.
And at that a word that is never uttered first, unsolicited.
I dont hear "I Love You" unless I say it first.
I dont get a kiss unless I give one first.
I dont get a hug unless I give one first.
We don't make love unless I inititate first.

In fact right now I dont get much from you at all.
You say you are focused on making us money so we can live a better life?
You are ignoring me and my feelings in the process.
And it hurts.
Badly.

We used to chat during the day. Yes I do understand you are busier now...but I love hearing from you during the day, knowing that you are thinking of me too?


I used to get this:

• You are the reason for my drive and focus. I'm riding this lightning bolt for you. I love you
• I'll live for nothing, but i'll die for you. Because you are everything. X
• I'm thinking of you all the time. You are part of my thought process that i cannot function without :-)
• Together we are getting there, wouldn't be any point without you. You redefine me :-)

  
  

Now I get this:

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It hurts.

Because I dont know if you still feel that way.

I miss it.